After killing so many, I need to save at least this one.#idk man just #like do you ever look at cas and just //see HIM// #like okay you see the coat and the blue eyes and the hair #you see the guy that gets nervous around chicks in brothels #and the dude that couldn’t catch a star trek reference if it beamed him up #you see that guy most of the time #but sometimes it sucker punches you #that THIS #the half smiles and the addiction to TV #isn’t all there is#there’s something else #something more than you can understand #and he’s done some things #horrible and shocking and wonderful and break-the-mold things #that make you look like a goddamn ant #and yet #when you tell him to sit in the backseat and stay put #he //listens// #do you ever look at cas #and think about what he did #and wonder how you ever came to be #wonder how he can still look at you like you’re his world #like you’re different #like you’re the one exception to every rule he had #does cas ever amaze you and shock you and terrify you#because he should #staring love in the face does that to you sometimes (via leatherandlightning)