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glorious-sherlock:

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HE  M U S T ’ N T  SEE

I love the colors in this. It’s like John has two faces? (BTW DO YOU REMEMBER JANUS THE GOD WITH FACES… Guess what english name has for origin Janus?)
One of John’s faces is blue – cold – for the outside world – queen and country – marriage – a nice life under control – sad
One of John’s faces is yellow – warm – for Sherlock – genuine – impulsive – never boring – a beautiful life of love friendship and adventures – happy

At this point he is torn between these two sides of him since he is celebrating his upcoming marriage that will definitely make him blue/sad forever, with Sherlock who he has missed and will miss everyday because he is the only one making him feel warm and alive.

So when he says “He musn’t see”, he’s talking about everything he has to hide. He can’t have Sherlock seeing what he is about to become, he has to hide the other side of himself, one last time, to enjoy the hapiness of Sherlock’s presence. And then he’ll go away and leave this yellow/warm side behind him.

Obviously, he drinks and says He musn’t see. Becausein the end, the one who musn’t see is himsel. He musn’t see that he his about to make a huge mistake.

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