harmalade:

executive dysfunction is so weird because it’s like there are all these obstacles in your way, but they’re invisible? so you try to do something and you run into like this invisible wall and you’re like “what the hell is this?” and other people are like “nothing’s stopping you, just do it” but how can you explain what’s in your way when even you don’t know? you only find out by feeling it out, it’s not obvious.

every additional unfamiliar, unpracticed, or unknown step is an invisible stumbling block. it’s so hard to make your way through the obstacle course. being super careful means you have no hope of finishing on time, rushing means hurting yourself. either way it takes twice as much energy as it’s supposed to.

sometimes you just spend all your time and effort just trying to figure out what the obstacles are so that someone will believe they’re there. but then they say “if there was a block in front of you, why didn’t you go around it? it doesn’t take that much extra time to go around a block.” but you took all your time trying to figure out it was a block in the first place.

you have to feel the edges of it to figure out it’s not a wall that stretches on forever