Heya thank you so much. đź’—
Obviously television and movies are big influences. Baroque art, pin-up art, sci-fi illustration, album cover art, etc. Whatever I grew up with, really.
“Dream world” is accurate, I think. I want to show you my gaze and bring you into a space where I can share it with you. It’s a little bit erotic and a little bit perverted, too, because we’re talking about the dream world of film and television where nothing is real and the camera tells you what you’re supposed to find attractive.
But it’s not necessarily just my gaze. It’s taking something that’s generally considered shameful or immature (like being a fangirl—or just being a girl in general and having fantasies and masturbatory thoughts in whatever capacity that girls are expected to grow out of or at the very least never talk about) and taking it very seriously. As seriously as any male artist has ever taken himself and his own gaze.
I love the idea of girl fantasy, which is something that people look down on and have always looked down on or ignored historically—but girl fantasy through a completely elevated and male-dominated form of art.
Nothing is quite as appealing or satisfying to me. That a girl can be as skilled as Caravaggio and paint Jensen Ackles because fuck you. 🙂