John is not embarrassed by his feelings for Sherlock, he’s afraid.
screams myself to sleep
sobs silently into a corner
Bruh.. Is that why John was taking extra shots while Sherlock wasn’t looking on the night of his stag do? He wasn’t drinking to get tanked, or because Sherlock was being a super nerd with his “alcohol input piss output” app..
Was he drinking because he was scared of his imminent marriage? Or because he was afraid of what he was feeling toward Sherlock right then?
