I’m gonna talk about me, and school and stuff. Below the cut so I don’t bore ya’ll.

I flubbed this last school year. I failed spanish (twice!), withdrew from a half-semester because I just wasn’t doing anything with it and I think I only got d’s in the two film classes I did take. So….this year was Not Good in terms of schoolwork.

I’m 35. I go to Arizona State University Online because it lets me go to school and still work full time. I know how shitty the job market is, especially without a bachelor’s degree.

I had a long conversation yesterday with my school success coach (one of the reasons i like ASU). I changed my major to film and media last fall, and he wanted me to step back and took a look at why I did so poorly this year and what my ultimate goals are.

I told him I want to go into screenwriting because Doctor Who (again) has no female writers. Because I’d like the shows and movies I watch to pass the Bechdel Test now and again. And representation is important.

My problem isn’t that I can’t do the work, it’s that i just don’t. I’m terrible about getting homework done and in a 7.5 week class that’s an impossible situation. I’ve always had that problem though, it’s why I did so terrible in high school and chose the military after instead of college.

I’m done now until August. I just have to figure out what I need to do to stay on top of my classes and get stuff done like I need to. I feel like I’m failing the responsibility test. I need to figure out how to use my time wisely so I can get the degree, so I can pursue the dream, so I can make a difference.