personal stuff feel free to skip.
Depression is really kicking my ass, has been for a couple weeks. I’m not really writing. i mostly just want to sleep or cry or both. I know I’ve been withdrawn.
I feel really invisible right now, too.
Don’t worry, no desire to self harm. Just feel muddled and no I don’t know what would help, gonna talk to the psychologist soon.
Depression-Busting Exercise Tips For People Too Depressed To Exercise – The Establishment
Depression-Busting Exercise Tips For People Too Depressed To Exercise – The Establishment
Oh hey look, something that ISN’T TOTAL FUCKING BULLSHIT 😀
… Step 1. Realize that you should exercise. Step 2 ? Step 3. HEALTH!
When you’re depressed, that question mark can be a barely navigable labyrinth of garbage fires fueled by physical and mental exhaustion, self-loathing, defeat, and frustration. The last time I found myself trying to hack through that mess during a particularly dark period, I started to come up with my own list of bare-bones, practical tips to help me face the idea of moving again. Now I’m sharing them, in case they might help someone else in a similar position. I stress the word “might.” If you’re depressed, the last thing you need is another a-hole telling you what you should do. But if you’re looking for somewhere to start, I’ve been there too.
First heading? “You don’t have to exercise.” I love this entire piece. It’s going on facebook, that’s how much I love it. A+
“The perfect body is a breathing one. Anything that serves those ends is worth considering. Everything else is noise.”
“Most of these training tips and listicles read like they came from people who have faced very little adversity in their lives, and who think that their own health is entirely the product of their own hard work.”
fucking instant reblog
If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed but it is one of the kindest noblest and best things you will ever do.
Stephen Fry (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
The opposite of depression is not happiness, but vitality, and it was vitality that seemed to seep away from me in that moment. Everything there was to do seemed like too much work. I would come home and I would see the red light flashing on my answering machine, and instead of being thrilled to hear from my friends, I would think, “What a lot of people that is to have to call back.” Or I would decide I should have lunch, and then I would think, but I’d have to get the food out and put it on a plate and cut it up and chew it and swallow it, and it felt to me like the Stations of the Cross.
And one of the things that often gets lost in discussions of depression is that you know it’s ridiculous. You know it’s ridiculous while you’re experiencing it. You know that most people manage to listen to their messages and eat lunch and organize themselves to take a shower and go out the front door and that it’s not a big deal, and yet you are nonetheless in its grip and you are unable to figure out any way around it.
Andrew Solomon, Depression – The Secret We Share, TED talks (via feigenbaumsworld)
This is exactly it.
(via bisexualstilinski)
One time the thing that made me notice my depression was a coworker giving me a book of recipes with wine pairings (context: I cook professionally, and at the time, I developed the menus at this restaurant), and my first thought was, “What an asshole. Now I have to read that.”
(via peroxidepirate)
Things I never knew about depression until I finally had a doctor explain the disease to me
Depression can manifest as irrational anger.
My complete and total inability to keep anything clean or tidy for any amount of time is a symptom of my depression. I may never be able to do this. It’s important that I remember that and forgive myself when I clean something out (like my car) and it ends up trashed within a week.
Depression IS A DISABILITY. Requiring accommodations is okay.
Medications don’t make you better, they don’t cure your depression. They serve as an aid. Their purpose is to help you get to everyone else’s minimal level of functioning.
Depression can cycle through periods of inactivity. This doesn’t mean it’s gone away.
The reason I don’t feel like other people understand me is because … well … other people DON’T understand me. They can’t. They don’t have my disability.
Paranoia is par for the course.
Depression can and will interfere with your physical mobility. Forgive yourself when you can’t physically do something.
It’s entirely possible that I may never be able to live by myself. I can’t take care of myself. I need help to do it. And that’s okay.
As someone who suffers from depression and who experiences all these things as well I think this is important and needs to be reblogged.
Depression is a very difficult thing, not only for people who suffer from it, but for everyone who knows a depressed person. My family doesn’t know how to deal with it, my friends try their very best to support me and I have tried to pretend I was fine until I was in ninth grade.I didn’t know any of this either until I was actually diagnosed & my doctor broke it down for me.
This.all.is.the.truth.
i dont think ive spent more than 3 hours awake at a time for the past 3 days. I feel useless and pathetic but it helps to know that it’s part of my depression and not a personal failing.
Being lazy: Hm, I guess I’ll just hang out in the garden today. I mean, there’s work to do, but it can be done tomorrow. Chilling in the sun is better. Maybe I’ll read something.
Being depressed: I could sit in the sun. I’d have to go outside. Why is sitting in the sun even valued, it’s just sitting, but warmer. I’ll just sit here. Can I be asleep now, please? I have work to do, why am I so useless? I can’t even get up to go outside. And I can’t sleep. Why is everything so much.
Yeah, I know it’s just “in your head”. Where else would being sad be? Not everything that is in your head is just a product of your imagination and can be ignored. Depression is a brain malfunction that dampens your perception of the world to a dull, grey mass. Literally nothing can make you happy, because the option of being happy has been cancelled. Nothing can look drastic to you, because drastic implies worry and worry implies something dear to you and something dear would make you happy, but you are not happy. About nothing. Niki Minaj could come up next to you and hug you, wishing you a good day and you’d be like: “I guess I should feel something now, but… it’s kinda meh.”
Depression is an illness, so treat it like one. Get help and encourage depressed friends to get help.